This is who we are
So incredibly flawed
Expectations we'll never
live up to
Lost in a world
Where theory's are just another
Distraction
From the fact
Of hopelessness

I say there is always hope
But that's just a
Voice
Whispering possibility
Speaking of the past
Knowing nothing.



I just realized
No one really knows what
They're doing
Just create shit to do
To keep them busy
Entertained till their hour glass cracks
And the sand pours out
Till there is nothing
Only the life flickering out of them

Alright, so it's been a while since my last journal. Of course no one cares what I've been up to, otherwise you'd have asked I'm sure I'm still on Whirled often enough, feel free to visit me [link]

Anyways, I'm even more addicted to music then you may remember. I've been forced to switch to ear buds due to the fact that my amazing Skullcandy headphones died My Zune = life just now. I dun know what I'd do without it, but I'm about to find out because I'm headed for a week in hell and I can't charge it without a computer right now. I'll just have to occupy myself with cleaning the shore house and reading. Maybe I'll get up early and go surfing
Locals: aka anyone who could make it to hang out sometime, I've had a movie card since christmas and I'd like to go see something. Suggestions aside from Transformers?

I've also come across Have I mentioned this before? Regardless, you must read some of her work 'tis good at worst.

DoInk. An animation site I found through Stev(yes I still stalk him) It's pretty nifty if you want to look it up.

While I'm spamming you all with things to get lost in, I've decided to join a club on DA It's called darkclub full of what else, but dark artworks?

I should probably work on making myself an icon, I mean, 's been two years. I'm so lazy.

sing, sing your blues away
Put off shit till another day
I'll rot the sky black as it hangs below your swinging feet
Fetishes galore, find yourself something sweet

I guess thas it para mi, Dai Stiho

1. Put Your itunes, windows media player, MP3player, etc on Shuffle.
2. For each song, write "in my pants" after the song name.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
(no, I really couldn't resist )

1. Out Tonight in my pants (oxymoron much?)
2. Swing life away in my pants
3. Survivalism in my pants
4. Nothing else matters in my pants
5. Conquest in my pants
6. Raining Blood in my pants :/
7. The Democratic circus in my pants
8.I Do Not want This in my pants
9. Survive in my pants
10.Right Path in my pants
11. My Friends in my pants(eggh, razors)
12. Super charger heaven in my pants
13. I'll feel a whole lot better in my pants (no comment)
14. Stories in my pants
15. Subway lips in my pants
16. Eraser in my pants ?
17. Sunspots in my pants
18. If I ever leave this world alive in my pants
19.The bank in my pants
20.Rainmaker in my pants
21. All the love in the world in my pants (I have a lot of NIN songs, don 't I?)
22. This is your life in my pants
23.Translyvanian Transmission in my pants
24.Shrooms in my pants
25.Little kids in my pants (soooo wrong)
26.Epiphany in my pants
27. double personality in my pants
28.Too much in my pants
29.Hall of the mountain king in my pants
30.Negative space in my pants


eh, that's enough for now though I was tempted to keep going XD
In other news, 1.if anyone's still with me: no I haven't gone emo, those scratches are from my adorable kitteh(n)
2.my pool is open and will be ready by next weekend(maybe before)
3. I probably won't be here next weekend anyway because I'm going to fry on the beach(note to self wax the surfboard)
4. I should stop writing this and work on editing poor 's story because she's been waiting forever
it's really quite intresting

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE,
WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:
Glass of Water
Coldplay
didn't know I had this song…

Waking Up:
Of Moons, Birds & Monsters
MGMT
I love mgmt so much

First Day At School:
Punch You In The Jeans
The Lonely Island
>.< good thing I'm not a guy

Falling In Love:
Natural Life
Breaking Benjamin
in the middle of a mob?
or a fight?

During a sex scene, you scream:
Animal I Have Become
Three Days Grace
… no comment.

Fight Song:
Dimebag
Cross Canadian Ragweed
it's a tad slow for a fight scene…

Breaking Up:
The Good Soldier
NIN

After getting drunk you say:
Mind With a Heart of It's Own
Tom Petty
I don't really like this song, remind me to delete it.

Prom:
Live During Wartime
Talking Heads


At your speech after you become prom queen/king you say:
Journeymen
Iron Maiden
but that's a joke, more like what I shout to the sky after beating up the prom queen XD

Life's OK:
Suicide Blues
Cross Canadian Ragweed
:/ figures

Mental Breakdown:
Super Honeymoon
Owl City
O.o

Driving:
Wild Mountain Honey
Steve Miller Band

Flashback:
Future Reflections
MGMT
hey, this paradox kinda works

Getting Back Together:
No Games
Breaking Benjamin

Wedding:
La Vie Boheme
Rent
wooow, what a wild wedding

Birth of Child:
Love Is A Crime
Chicago(the musical)

Paying the Dues:
Good To Go To Mexico
Toby Keith
(guess I'm not paying too many dues )

Your deepest secret:
Deadbeat Daddy
Alix Olson
… I'm a lesbian?

Night Before War:
Repressed
Apocalyptica
(head bangs)

Final Battle:
Inquisition Symphony
Apocalyptica
did I mention I love this band as well?

Moment of Triumph:
Grace Is Gone
DMB
Guess I fought dirty…

Death Scene:
Thunder Kiss '65
Rob Zombie

Funeral Song:
Viva La Vida
Coldplay

End Credits:
This Flesh Is A Tomb
Atereyu

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"hive except at mating and swarming time, one would naturally expect"

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
a lamp

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
oh, PTB don't remind me!
my mother made me watch Oprah with her yesterday. oh the horror*rocks back and forth*
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
about 1:34?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
1:34... creepy

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the music I am listening to... but that is from the computer. I can hear my cat meowing and birds chirping and my mother yelling, thankfully not at me this time.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
about ten minutes ago, I was taking out the trash and taking pictures of bees

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
I looked at my whirled mail

9. What are you wearing?
an artic blue WWF shirt, grey sweatpants, bracelets(military balls and camo.)

10. Did you dream last night?
yes.
11. When did you last laugh?
when I was reading an archery book and got a mental image of Scott in archery class... shaking.

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
paint, pictures I prefer not to look at.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
every time I look in the mirror(less often then you would think)

14. What do you think of this quiz?
it's a neat way to pass the time and gives me something to think about

15. What is the last film you saw?
30 days of night: Dust to Dust

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
a one way ticket out of here, bars for whirled, new camera, new phone, a great deal of books, how much are lives going for these days?

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
how much does the computer know?...

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or
politics, what would you do?
I would end abuse of all things in all forms

19. Do you like to dance?
Sometimes, not usually in public places

20. George Bush:
is finally free

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Raine

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Jurgen

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
It would definitely be considered

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Oh, it's you. I thought you didn't believe in me.